Sorrow.....

Sorrow: pain or sadness because of loss, etc; an event that causes distress; the expression of grief.

Lately I've been getting a lesson in sorrow. I'm not going to go into the details, just to say that my "adopted Dad" is going through medical problems, cancer. He is not really my adopted Dad, but I have known him and his family for over ten years and they have treated me like their son and also refer to me as their "adopted son" and I do see them more than I see my real family. It's been hard seeing him sick and his wife worrying about him so..........

Here I am talking about how I've been getting a lesson in sorrow, but it's nothing compared to the lesson that his real family is going through. I just hope that what little help I am able to give and the time I spend with them helps take some of the burden of worry off them.

That's all I've got, things lately have been a little out of focus. But I know that things will get better, we just have to keep moving forward....................

The Good Old Days.....

Have you ever made the statement to some one about how "there just wasn't as much bad in the world when I was young as there is now". Over the years I've found myself telling my kids that times are different now then they used to be. You could let your child walk through the store alone and not be in fear of some one taking them, you could leave your car and your home unlocked and all and all there just wasn't as much bad things out there in the world to worry about.

So is the world in a downward spiral with evil taking over and growing more and more each year? Or is it that as you grow older you begin losing your childhood innocence and began to see the dangers in the world that were always there, but because of your innocence you didn't realize they were there.

I do not look forward to the day that my children lose that childhood innocence, but I will be glad when they are able to see the world as it is and will began to believe me when I tell them of the dangers in the world.................

Play Ball....

I found the Baby Blues funny in the paper yesterday and it reminded me of the other day when the SWAT Team got together and decided to play basketball. It was a good thing there was no officials calling the game or we would have been spending a lot of time at the free throw line. Now the guys want to play flag football, which will be loads of fun, but I figure some one will end up being tackled. Good times, Good times......................

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Growing Up.......

Well Sunday while I was at work my wife called me and told me that our oldest daughter, who is 16 years old, was wanting to go to the movies with the boy that she's been talking with for about the last three weeks. The bad thing was she was wanting this boy to come and pick her up and drive the two of them to the movies. My wife said it was alright with her as long as they were going to the movies and then right back home. My inner dad voice was screaming Hell No!!!!, but I went along with my wife and agreed to let her go. I hung up the phone feeling like I had just received a death notification. I did see them going through town while I was patrolling. The boy was driving fine, so that helped to ease the worry a little. All and all the boy seems fine, it's just that my little girl is growing up and I don't know if I'm ready for that just yet. Seems like she should still be five years old. At least she will still talk to me. I guess no matter how old your child gets, you'll still see them as your baby. Worst thing is that by the time I probably get through the initial shock of my oldest daughter dating, my youngest daughter (who is 12) will probably want to start. How can something so precious as children cause so much turmoil in one's life.................

This was taken during one of our training days at the first of the year. Who says that old baseball bats don't have a use.........
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Starting Back Up......

It was four years ago that I closed the doors on my TaeKwonDo studio to pursue my career in Law Enforcement. It has been a busy four years, I have been able to get hired on as full time, went through the Police Academy, received my Basic certificate, joined the SWAT team and then passed SWAT school. Now that the start to my career is going, I've started back training in TaeKwonDo. I found that I should not have quit training, it's going to take a lot to get back to where I was, (I've already done something to my left knee and have been having to wear a soft brace). It's going slow to start with. I was able to make contact with one of the Instructors from my old organization and found that he has started his own organization, ELITE Martial Arts Alliance, and have joined it and was able to keep my second degree rank. Yesterday I purchased a school charter. It felt great to discuss buying a school charter and the possibility of teaching again, although my wife thinks I have enough on my plate. Which for right now I don't plan on opening a studio, but in the future it might be possible. For right now I'm just glad to be starting back up.....

Feeling Old....

Last night I sat with my wife and two daughters and watched the Top 100 Songs of the 80's on VH1. My kids sure made me feel old making fun of the videos and asking if I ever wore clothes like that or if my hair was that long, which I did and it was. Oh well at least we got to spend the night together and having a good time, which is priceless........

How Many People Have Your Name......

While Blog hopping I found this on 1015 ON A SATURDAY NIGHT, there are 19 people with my name in the U.S.A.:

HowManyOfMe.com

There are: 19 people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

Check it out.......

The Change of the Season.....

Well the season is starting to change and along with it came the time change. Ever since we rolled our clocks back an hour, a full nights sleep has eluded me. Most nights it's all I can do to stay awake past 8:00pm. Then once I go to sleep, I'm usually up by 3:30am and then I just lay there until it's time to get up. It would be a little different if I had something on my mind, but I don't and so I just lay there thinking about how bad I'd like to go to sleep. I hate time change, it messes me up every time. Bad thing is once I start to get use to it, we'll have to change back. Oh well, at least I'm getting some sleep, on average about 4-5 hours a night, what else could you ask for.............

Changing Seasons....

Well it's starting to get cold here and the trees are changing colors. My oldest daughter went down to the pond and took some pictures.....